wasup

Damn its been a long time since i wrote to xanga. Do you miss me lol..Anyhow,  A lot has happened; a lot has changed; well i changed. For the good of course. I know i say this all the time but i feel that everyday sould be a day of advancement or learning.

Enough of the philosophical BS lets see whats up with me. Well i got my car back in runnin (thank god). And for some reason my ass owe taxes and that bout a bitch. Although i'm in a financial bind i still feel like i'm on top of the world. Some of my goals are finally come into play. I got my car back, i'm getting in shape for the summer, and on top of that i will be out of this financial bing come April. Hell yeah,

Enough bout me lets miscellaneous BS: Almost got into a fight with my older Bro. He quite larger than me and i probably would've gotten my ass handed too me. But I was'nt afraid. I've gotten into boxing, its fun as hell but i don't think i'll ever get into the ring just for training purposes. I guess that would explain why i was'nt afraid to get that ass-whoopin. I found the true meaning of a fake-ass nigga. Paticurly my friends and some people i'm talking to but that a topic for  enother time. Thats about it for now too much to write.........Take care of yourself and each other.

Peace Out 

Wasup

I'm going back to my poetic side once again i believe enuff has happened within these weeks for me to come up with something good. Poetically speaking of course

*ahem*

Harsh Reality

Poverty stricken people, city, street; a nightmare no child should meet. Yet i did, hid, and farewell i bid. just to come back. thinking that my life is so wack. However i'm wrong and its just a conscience that i lack.me living in the blissfulness of ignorance. Why do i keep blaming my surroundings as a hindrance. Seeing feans on corner to corner. The ruined architecture from border to border. The stupidity of mothers and brothers. No! I betta not blame them for they should be my motivation it just might be me to deliver them to salvation. I'm constanly asking "why?" wishing that i would just die. Hell naw, i aint gonna just let this one ride. I'm filled with too much damn pride. Black pride the same pride that shaped this nation. Still though why do shit gotta be so fucked up. But i guess i should just shut up. And stop thinking about this technicality. and realize and overcome; and defeat this harsh ass Reality.

Peace Out

wasup

Have you ever watched or read something that changed your whole perception on life? Well i have! I won't tell you what i was whatching noooo. But it impacted me greatly. Throughout my life fucked up shit seems to always happen to me (don't be sad for me i'm used to it). However i somehow manage to find the good things throughtout all this fuckedupness. So i guess theres balance there. Like i always say for every bad thing that happens something good happened or its right around the corner. The way i've changed rather the way i've matured is that i need to stop being so negative about shit. By negative i mean stop being so defensive towards shit; stop thinking of worst case scenarios; stop trying to obtain things through grueling diligence; the list goes on. And look for more positive ways to handle situations. I know i'm talking a lot of BS but this was really a revelation for me. I mean my life is changed on some real shit. A way saying this simply would be don't always try to make things happen rather let thing happen to you.....sometimes......Balance. Thats all i got for today. Take care of yourself and each other.

Peace Out 

long time no hear xanga. Have you ever had that one relative that not only pisses you the fuck off but embarasses the hell out of you whenever your out. One for me it is my fucking uncle Demetrius! Yesterday we were supposed to go to the gym we finally get down town and go through the damn traffic he finally make it to gym. They told us that the court was down for the next two weeks. Oh well, he says come Eric lets go. I wanted to work out still though but since he drove me up there we gotta go by his rules. Before coming to the gym however this nigga purchaces some fucking chili dogs. So he had to take a shit. So i'm waiting 20 min for this Ass Clown. While departing he'es trying to talk to every fucking girl that walk by keep in mind his ass 43. Well can't hate so we go to the student center to play some rounds of pool i'm playin and in the middle of me shooting he talking some major shit so i fucked all up. While we'er waiting he's sitting there practicing boxing moves on me. Normally I somebody do that to me i'll woop that ass but seeing how he's fam and 6'4 and 280 lbs i would definitely get my ass handed to me and lastly what ever the fuck he was wearing is another story. Unfortunately i despite all this i kinda had a good time. So if anyone went through something similar i know how you feel. As always take care of yourself and each other.

Peace Out 

long time no hear. Happy New Years!! and a very late Merry Christmas! Hows everybodies Holidays. well mines was blessed i was a little sad cause i did'nt really get shit but later that week i found a car. So i'm satisfied. Question: I sent everybody in my cell a text saying "Merry Christmas" & "Happy NewYear" everybody was all like thats so sweet and shit. Yeah but i thought thats what your supposed to do. So why was everyone so supprised? Well at anyrate, My new years was boring as fuck but that means that my year is going to be hype as hell right. well i hope so. I gotta a lot resolutions but i feel if i talk about them i might jinx them. So i'll tell you guys about them when they come into fruition. As always take care of yourself and each other.

Peace Out